For me, the immediate feeling of a fetish is really overpowered by the sensations of what I'm doing.  It becomes more of a mental fetish than a physical one.  I LOVE the feeling of sliding off VERY sweaty dancewear.  It makes me feel like I've EARNED the reward of wearing these things.  

When I'm not in the best of shape (like right now, unfortunately), I'll wear a Tshirt over my unitard or leotard.  However, in the past when I got in the shpe I wanted, it was such a rewarding rush to see myself in the mirror wearing only a unitard.  I would be doing a combination and glance in the mirror and say, "who is that dancer?" and in an instant realize it's me.  That's a rare feeling for me and it's been many years.  Hopefully, I'll feel it again.

Anyway, keep it up. You will find many rewards in ballet.  You will have many challanges to come.  Some day, you may take partnering which is very fun for a lot of reasons.  You may also wish to take pointe when you are strong enough.  That is a REAL feeling of accomplishment!

So, enjoy!

--EMPIRA

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